SOLITARY ... NUMB....!!!

This is d phrase compltly describing ME..!!
bt no regrets....
ths z wt i wntd..
hs z wt i DESERVE...!!

"everythng wht z hppng at ths momwnt z d choices u've made in PAST.."

so.. my past deeds r rspnsbl 4 my so clld..GIFT--PRESENT.!
i hv no bdy arund me.. excpt ths..
bt m HAPPY ths way...
jst lv my DiARy...



bt d thng tht strikes my mind is... tht i ws nt ths b4...!
i ws d 1 whu cared 4 evry1 arnd me...
i ws hurt if smbdy cried..
i ws glad if smbdy smiled..
i'd thnk evryway possible 2 cherish a MOMENT ... so tht it culd b added 2 my SWEET MEMORIES..

nw wt hppnd..?
y m i feelingles..?
no hopes fr myself... nt evn fr future..(I'M such a *****)
no expctn frm odrs...!

i cn c..i cn smell..i cn hear.. i cn tuch... bt i vn nt FEEL..!
ths is so nt ME..!!
i m debilitated.. n dnt knw who 2 blame.?
n dnt knw do i really wnt 2 blame...?

i wntd 2 add each LOVING MEMORY 2 my LIFE'S POT... as ths final sem is abt 2 ovr.. n ths tym will nt cm bk...
bt i ve turned myself exactly opposite...!!

i relly dnt care if my frnz still LOVE meor hve strtd HATING me...
i m nt cncrnd 4 any FRIEND arnd me...
i dnt knw wt hs hppnd 2 me..?


do i need 2 c sm1..??
or i m ALL FYN..?

lets c.. whr does LIFE tk me..??
evrythng in ur hand..ALMIGHTY..
bless me..
shailey..!